As with life,
Beauty is seen through blinkered eyes,
Surrounded by shadows and darkness,
Even squinted
See the brilliant brightness
Of the future,
Time is a loop
So wait for the blend,
So the spirit is free to roam,
Back and forth
Balancing between
Light and dark.
The master of disguise never wears a costume
Just hides the sides of his mind,
The myth becomes alive
To the right side of the brain,
It makes us dance to silence
Create with nothing
And paint colours to the sky,
When it takes over
Overcoming the left distant side
You will strive for the feeling
Of exuberance
To last forever,
Never wanting to ever let go,
This is the only way
To move forward and evolve.
Take me back
To that time of innocence,
Eating Thunder Cat crisps
Drinking Shandy at twenty pence
Always having to go home
When it’s raining or gets dark,
And the only major choice
Was to go big or little park
Playing games for hours
Jumping off the swings,
Pretending it doesn’t hurt
When it really really stings
Scaling the massive slide
First up to the top wins,
Sliding back down on our back
Next time on our shins.
No health and safety padding
No soft cushion under our feet,
When we fell off a ride
We Smashed down on the concrete
The witches hat was mental
Clanging up towards the sky,
But it was the best thrill
Holding on or probably die
Kissing on the wooden benches
Or Playing forty, forty,
It was lively, noisy, and crazy
No-one had time to be naughty
Lads playing football
Girls giggling as they play,
Crushes came and went
Changing from day to day
Best friends forever
You never forget your mates,
Arguments came and went
No time for long term hates
Take me back to the endless days
Of having fun without a care,
The Memories wont be beaten
If I could choose, I would go back there.
We need to smooth the ride
For People that shouldn’t have died,
A spiritual involvement perhaps?
Before a person’s mind will collapse,
Every day, it happens every day
Vibrant lifes are taken away,
Just one, one other to understand
So life not extinguished by own hand.
Switch
Bored of the switchboard
Turning in my head
Dialing mostly crazy
Acting out dead
Bored of the switchboard
Forever out of tune
Keep twisting onto normal
But end up on the moon
Thoughts are playing over
Set at the wrong speed
No wonder life is fuzzy
No wonder my nose bleeds
Spinning on a rock pile
Insanity to unique
The only guarantee
Crazy is on repeat.
What if I died
And this is all a dream,
The accident was fatal
And my mind is teasing the news To my subconscious
Of the reality of my death,
An amputation to signal a loss,
Losing two fingers
telling the mind I’m slowly dying,
Disappearing away
Bit by bit
Piece by piece,
What if I died
In that instant of terror,
Snapping my head in to limbo,
Bringing an illusion of survival
An alternate version of events
Where I still live, for awhile at least,
Now I have detected, and felt
This true reality,
Am I ready?
Ready for the darkness,
Or whatever awaits me,
If anything,
Ready to leave this eighteen month fairytale
Written in my mind,
Is it better to fake a life in ignorance,
Live in a dream state,
Interact as normal
Or just realise my fate?
It’s out of my hands
I must sleep, but will I ever wake again?
And if I awaken the next morning
Will the feeling still hang over me,
That whatever path I follow,
I’m living on borrowed time.
I turn and I flee, flee to be free
Looking back to the sky I do pray
But running comes natural to me
Panic makes me scared
Fear aches my skin
Breathing nostrils flared
Escaping not a sin
I pray I wont hide
But courage runs through me
Quick enough to collide.
Do you know the fear
Of stepping outside,
Shaking with exhaustion,
To have Convulsions
With the thought
Of impending doom
From venturing in to the world.
Choosing instead to stay
In the zone of comfort,
Ride out the anxiety,
Hide from any knocking doors,
Cover my ears, praying they will leave,
Eyes tightly shut, only opening
To Time watch the clock,
Waiting,
Until the deadline passes
That I was expected.
At this time relief sets in
A weight is lifted,
Able to exhale,
Even though I’ve failed,
Let people down
Through not turning up,
Ruining reputation,
Using up all the forgiveness allowed,
Resulting in bad looks and stares from afar.
Even though because of this,
I’m relieved,
I didn’t have to go,
Put myself through hell
By advancing through the front door,
I can live with this for tonight,
Enjoy the feeling of safety,
Celebrate my avoidance,
I’ve got away with it once again…
Until the next time.
Lean on me
When the cold casts a shadow
On the soul,
The dark transferring to the mind
As a ghost
Swallowing life and blinding
Eyes of colour,
I will guide you towards the light,
When time seems too long
To see and walk
Through the psychological storm
And tears leave scars
Unseen to others,
I will hold your hand
Drag you towards the sun,
Though if your weight bares to strong
I shall stay,
And the Demons shall hear us
Laughing in the dark.
I miss my friend
He had an affliction,
He never opened up
About his addiction,
But he was full of emotion
And loyalty in life,
If he could help you he would
Without thinking twice,
Drink was his weakness
Friendship his bond,
When suicide came
Everyone bowed to his song,
I’ll never forget my friend
I wish he didn’t die,
When that day comes around
I always look up to the sky.
