Amazing journey

After two years of hard work my new poetry book is now available to pre-order on Amazon and in other book stores.

I’ve been writing for years and not always when I’ve been in a good place. But that darkness makes the words honest, and to an extent brutal.

From the start of having confidence to edit them and send them off to publishers, I said to myself that I wouldn’t hold back, if I feel it’s too much, or maybe a trigger.

I decided if I ever felt that way with a poem I would write it anyway. No more avoiding life and escaping from my true feelings.

Suicide is suicide, pain is pain, and fear is fear. No need to dress it up. Don’t get me wrong every topic is used in context, not just for shock value.

Each poem reflects a stage in my life. They are deep, to the point, and honest.

I wanted people to feel what I was feeling when they read them. But also being able to interpret them in their own lives and history.

I believe that people with messy minds and ill mental health have great imaginations. Just imagine if that was used creatively, in art, music, poems, anything. The results would be unique and wonderous!!

I am very proud of this book. I’ve been able to step into the darkness without fear of being sucked in. What saw I put down in words, and this is my story and journey in poetry form.

My Book – Encryption of the Mind by Chris Chant.

Now available to pre-order from Amazon and other good bookstores.

Humour

We all need humour right? And people with negative thoughts, and sufferers of ill mental health have awesome sense of humours, we’re just to scared to show it, through fear of rejection or saying the wrong thing or offending.

But it’s there, along with the awesome imagination and when used it can build many positive connections.

Its the same as negative thoughts you can be creative and use your humour elsewhere, drawings, photos and captions, writing sketches, or videos.

Speaking personally I have a wicked and strange sense of humour, and when something hits me in the right spot, I’m off with the fairies laughing, creasing up. It just brings so much fun. Humour is a natural part of the mind which can be buried deep, but when reached and arisen to the surface it’s a dominant force overriding all.

Me I like to use poetry, so here’s a bit of light coming from the dark. . .

 

A Chance Romance at the Office

A door opened
My arm yanked back
In a pitch black room
With no grace or tact

Shut in a cupboard
The room really stinks
Opposite she inhales
Thank God I wore Lynx

Holds my hands
Stands real close
I can smell her breath
I think she’s had toast

Pulls me in for the kill
I hope i don’t spoil it
Squeezes me tight
So I now need the toilet

Snogs me hard
My heart races
I feel her tounge
Didn’t know she wore braces

Let’s out a sigh
Knowing she’s sinned
I let out air
But mine is just wind

The light then clicks on
And she sees my face
Her mouth drops
Now knowing her mistake

I’m not who she thought
You should of seen her
Run out the office
After kissing the cleaner

Her lover popped out
Steve from room two
Their having an affair
Only me that knew

They always meet here
Tounges down their throat
But Steve had to leave
So I nicked his coat.

 

Chris Chant 2018

 

 

 

Inspiration

Whatever it is use it.

I’ve been in some very dark places where there is no way out, but alas here I am. Whatever it is use it! This imagination of ours is what keeps us down. We use it to create negative and sour happenings about ourselves turning our thoughts septic.

What worked for me to use it, create something, Poetry, painting, a story, a blog, photography, whatever feels right and for you to be able express yourself. It might awaken a passion deep inside.

In that pit of despair when you feel like doing nothing, write down those feelings, draw what it looks like, use the exact words or pictures in your head. Keep it for yourself or show people, whatever’s happening with you in that moment get it out there in the world, make it real, because when you make something real it feels like you’re dealing with it and it can be dealt with, instead of living in your head, manipulating your mind. Make it real, use it to get you to a better place.

This is what works for me. On bad days I write how I feel, being honest and true, and then use it for poetry. For me it works.

Doesn’t matter if it’s dark, it’s just imagination. Everyone has one. And depression, anxiety, OCD… etc and other sufferers have awesome imaginations. Don’t be scared of it, it comes from you.

All I can say is try, who knows what you may home up with. A deep hidden talent, or just a honest interpretation of what’s happening with you inside.

It may show a better understanding, to you and to other people.

Be inspired. Inspire yourself.

Two Halves

Two halves
You may think these words are heavy
It’s hard not to be with mental illness
Most would of stopped reading by now
Some stayed just to be curious

Maybe you stayed because you can relate,
To how it felt and how it affected you
The Love, fear, happiness and hate
We’re constantly have, and are going through

Those first two verses were written when really low,
God, reading it brings me down
But only to a level of understanding
All part of turning your life around

Well, you got this far, and not by chance
Seen off the mysterious voices
Freedom is a wonderful thing
Being able to make life choices

A lot of life has been wasted
Solving an impossible puzzle
Time to look past, look forward
Take off that emotional muzzle

I don’t want to end this like I’m preaching,
But there’s one thing I’ve identified,
If you do relate, then you’re a kind, loyal,
Beautiful, passionate, creative, ambitious and caring person…
… Don’t hide!
This poem is the first one I wrote about feeling good about yourself. We few of a mixed up mind are very creative and it’s about accepting that and channelling it in positives ways. I hope you enjoyed it.

Chris